There are specific moments in your life that stick with you and shape your understanding of yourself as well as your behaviors. Sometimes these are beautiful moments of learning through parents or culture, but sometimes they are the moments of deep pain or trauma.
I’ve experienced moments of deep powerlessness in this lifetime and others. Because I felt powerless in those traumatic moments, I subconsciously became complacent in giving my power away.
But through my healing journey, I’ve come to realize that I am actually a powerful being and I am responsible for creating my life. I have known at a deep soul level that despite having lots of loss and grief in my life that everything happens for a reason and that reason is to serve my growth and evolution as a spiritual being.
The first moment that made me feel powerless was losing my parents at a young age. I lost my father suddenly and unexpectedly shortly after my 8th birthday, which shook my sense of safety, comfort and stability. Four years later I witnessed my mom battle breast cancer and lose. I watched a very strong woman suffer from a disease that slowly sucked her autonomy and life away. Witnessing that with the power to do nothing reinforced my belief in my own powerlessness.
Losing my parents took away my strong sense of love and belonging, and left me with grief and loss so deep that I couldn’t really process it at the time. The need to process this grief revisited me in my own form of mental, emotional and physical sickness in my mid to late 20s. This mostly manifested in digestion issues- primarily leaky gut syndrome. I also suffered from the worst anxiety and brain fog I’d ever experienced. This led me on a journey of healing myself through holistic health practices and therapy that helped me address and process my inner pain.
Through this I began to understand that I do have the strength to heal and a way to steer my life in a positive direction. In healing my own sickness I witnessed my immense inner power, which I why I want to help other heart-centered changemakers others stand in theirs.
Reflecting on that time in my life, I know now that my Divine Feminine side is what helped me to heal. She was the aspect of me that guided me to sit with my pain, emotions and grief so that I could start to process (and thus digest) the trauma of my life. My intuition and sense of inner knowing , both of which are Divine Feminine qualities, also emerged through my healing process, which reinforces my firm belief that everything in this life happens for a reason. And that is true for all of us.
I am grateful for my journey of reclaiming my own power and how it’s now led me to you. If you too, are ready to transmute your pain to power and live a purpose-filled life guided by the Divine Feminine, let’s talk more about how I can support you along your journey of expansion.